So exams are over, hols are here, I wanna find a new job cuz I'm not keen on going back to a busy restaurant with little pay, but thinking that I've got CCA, chalet outings and all.. I don't know. All I know is I wanna earn extra cash to spend some on, and not idle my time away rotting at home.

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I should say life in a Polytechnic's much more manageable than in a JC's. Though it is definitely more tiring, cuz there's more projects always due about the same week and stuff, but yeah much more manageable considering I have a fair amount of interest in my course compared to the subjects I was taking in JC. So yup, I really feel fortunate that I left.

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I've always like to dance. I knew since young I had that interest since I bobbed wobbled turned around when there was music, but i guess that's what all normal kids do don't they. But in secondary school, I was pretty sure I'd like to improve myself on hip-hop especially. SRJC didn't offer hip-hop so I rather not try out contemporary-ballet at all. Yes I am not versatile that's why I never thought I was a good dancer. And then over here I got into NRA, but honestly everything feels different. I don't feel as confident as compared to how I was, I don't deliver well and I always feel inferior and there was pressure. Since when should your interest exude stress? I ask myself. Shouldn't it be a form of relieving stress? And so along the way I felt doubtful, I even thought of joining a sports CCA since I liked playing sports as well.

But, thankfully for the dance camp, I became pretty sure of myself again, and learnt that perhaps not all people are so judgmental. At least that's what I think now thats making me feel better. We make mistakes, some people learn fast, some people learn slow. That's how it is. It's like doing projects, you can't expect everyone to be at the particular level of speed in terms of efficiency.

I dreaded attending the camp at first honestly. Because I was a little lazy of making new friends and going through the same old motion of "Hi what's your name What's your course Where do you live" kinda conversations. I was afraid of the intimidation I would feel from all those strong dancers around me. And I'll say I'm a little ashamed of myself for thinking so.

Been sucha long time since I performed in front of a crowd. Though it wasn't smooth and perfect, thinking back, the experience was nice. Really nice. I've just got so much more to learn and improve on.